Sunday, September 30, 2007

``_____.*shagged.#

omfg`!!! end of the month liaos, wosh`!! yaas, i think next month me and Jess die die liaos...last night kena woke up by Jess or is it i haven't sleep`? or...i just started sleeping`? aiyo`!!! i also don't know nehs...anyways, yaas, checked schedule just now, next month's gonna be a real busy one...arghs`!!! please employ more staffs and stop sacking them unreasonably yaas...

1:05 AM Z

Saturday, September 29, 2007

``_____.*我需要的没那么简单。.#

sigh, went to work again, life is so boring`!!! work work work`!!! abo tio si stay at home at rot`!!! WTF cans`!!! like yesterday, was suppose to go shopping dee, but then cause Aries say she has to go cell group, then the time cannot make it la...so never go nohs, but then never mind la, cause at least i get to do some shopping today, hahas, cause Aries came to look for me mahs, so she pei me went to OG at the Albert Complex, kekes, at last i bought dar's thing, but then i never get to buy my shorts la...gggrrr`!!! yaas, and then i got OG priviledge card`!!! yuppy`!!! next is the metro card`!!! i'm comming`!!! just another $215`!!!

and, yaas, then on the way i had some emo again...the i start to realise, yaas, it's just part of nature that people won't know how to cherish...and that time changes everything, as time goes by, people tend to get sick and tired of things, not knowing the importance of maintaining.

i always thought that the things i needed are just so simple, so simple that actually anyone can fulfil my needs...but, yaas, as TIME goes by, i realise that the things i NEED aren't just those that can be easily givin out by anyone and that now i think that my life is fcukin screwed up`!!!

12:34 AM Z

Thursday, September 27, 2007

``_____.*just like that.#

sigh...wasted my off day just like that..siansation...

9:03 PM Z

``_____.*still in doubts.#

so tired...yesterday after work went to meet Jess cause she say die die want to sing K, but then Aries cannot make it, so i pei her go nohs, cause don't want to spoil her off day mahs, then before k we went to makan, kekes, at last i get to eat my CAVANA`!!! today then i know why i have been craving for it liaos, hahas, after we makan still got sometime so we quickly do some shopping, hahas, within such a short time the both of us also can get to spend money sia =Xx, we bought shoes, cause buy 2 got discount, $2 only lors, when the sales girl told us tha time i was lieke...huh, $2 only`? whats the big deal`? diaos rights...anyways, cause i really needed flast and jess also needed a new flip flop for work so we bought 2 kekes...then about 9:30 most of the shops are close for the day liaos, cause weekday mahs, who want to open till late for you, so we tio go sing song liao nohs, wahs...sang till 3, reached do evrything liaos, slept at about 5 in d morning sia...really is tired dee nohs...

then today still need to go work, yawns`!!! hahas, and then after work went to Bugis to do shopping AGAIN`!!! =D help Jess buy the CLINIQUE face product and then also bought my KOSE fce mask and SHU UEMERA mascara base, after that tio faster go back to pass Jess her stuff liaos, i cannot stay there for long la, i'll spend even more dee nohs`!!! kakas, then after that tio wait for father to come fetch me home...and now, i want to go and apply my cream and play game liaos...chaos`!!!

12:22 AM Z

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

``_____.*i'm trying to save~~~.#

omfg`!!! spend money again`!!! this time spend about $300+ sia, omg`!!! i tought i just said i'll learnt to save`? sigh...nvm, we'll strt saving tomorrow okkaes...=D hapii spending though =D

anyways, yaas, today after work went to do some shoppin again la...kekes, and bought for jess her Anna Sui's mascara long dee and, of cause, i bought things ofr myself again`!!! wakakas, i need to get so many other things for myself, omg`!!! kekes, jie say she'll buy that eyebrow grooming kit and black guess sling baggy for me`!!! hope it doesn't go out of stock ehh`? =DD

1:23 AM Z

Sunday, September 23, 2007

``_____.*how i feel read my lips.#

woahs, today was the first time i need to open shop so early...tsk tsk tsk...damn tired, cos have to wake up 1hr earlier than usual...omg nohs`!!! was like so busy...really busy cans, when was the last time i handled full house like this`?

12:22 AM Z

Friday, September 21, 2007

``_____.*home alone**.#

diaos nohs, my boss woke me up in the morning, wtf, jus to tell me about tomorrow's booking, arghs`!!! lj lahs`!!! and i'm home alone for the whole day...this is sssooo bored`!!! damn`!!!

10:17 PM Z

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

``_____.*FAILED.#

sigh...woke up early in the morning then went down to the shop, sigh, went to take that GOD DAMN FINAL THEORY TEST and FAILED it`!!! ARGHS`!!! den aftr tt went geylang to gt my ATM card changed, yeahs, now i've got POSB Go! ATM Card`!!! kekes...but then of cause i still must control my spendings`!!! CANNOT overspend`!!! CONTROL`!!!

8:58 PM Z

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

``_____.*smuack.s..#

today is my off day hors, mai siao siao`!!! kakas, and i am so guais cans =Xx cos i visit ah ma hors...

sigh...these few days is like damn sians nohs..sigh...am i more like myself now`? or am i more like fcuk now`?

don't seem to be knowing what am i doing already...
L.O.S.T

1:35 AM Z

Sunday, September 16, 2007

``_____.*this is like fcuk cans ..#

wahs, went to work again todae, sians arhs`!!! sigh, just now after work went to do some shopping then decided to search for the jacket...wah lau, i went to Peninsula Ltd Ed shop, they're have none of my desired pattern, sigh, so i went to the collectors boutique at Raffles City, and...sigh...they also don't have the one i'm looking for...arghs`!!! so i tried the one at City Link Mall...and great, cause i found the one i wanted...BUT`!!! NO SIZE`!!! ARGHS`!!! then i went back to Bugis...they don't even have it`!!! sigh`!!! i'm so disappointed`!!! and what's worst is`!!! i saw somebody wearing it`!!! i felt like stripping it off`!!! ARGHS`!!! i was like staring hard...but then i quickly walk away sia...sigh...i still feel VERY DISAPPOINTED`!!! then after that i did some shopping then ask dadii to fetch me home le...totally no mood sia...

11:58 PM Z

Saturday, September 15, 2007

``_____.*sorry, put the blame on me....#

wahs, just came home, guess what, i saw huat's bro, and he was like keep looking at me...at 1st, i really didn't regconize him la, but then after that, i thought for a while, then i realise it was him...by then...i don't know how to react or should i say, i don't know what kinda reaction i should give him also lors...sigh...expecially after knowing he'll never get over it...he simply hate me to the core liaos cans...well...i don't know what i can do to make your heart heal also liaos...but..if you really love me, give me your true blessings...or...maybe not...i gues this will only make me feel more guilty towards you...arghs`!!!

this is like fcuk`!!! i've never felt more guilty than this before`!!! you make me feel as though my life's gonna be doom...you make me feel as though i lead you to total darkness, isolated and filled you with hatred...

do you think you can forget just by avoiding me`? NO`!!! the only way to help you forget is to forgive`!!! only than will you be able to forget...

so...face it...though i hate to make you feel how you felt right now...because i know i was the one who brought you up, make you fly high, gave you hope, made your life, made you look forward to life...
i was the one who taught you so many things...and our this and that, i brought you through all the ups and downs so far, i taught you from wrong to right...and now, without me...you're nothing again...you're back to what you used to be...

maybe we shouldn't even started in the first place...it's just a lil too early i guess...

we got into it because we were still so young then...i thought i needed someone...

and the last thing i need you to know was that...you were the reason i live happily too then...
i want to thankyou for giving all to me while you did it patiently while i brought it together, while i figure it out...and it's lucky for me that you understood what a girl wants and what a girl needs...
but...girls are not easily satisfied...we'll never get enough...so they say if you love something let it go, if it comes back it's yours, that's how you know...

12:53 AM Z

Thursday, September 13, 2007

``_____.*ever wonder`?.#

well...have u ever wondered why wedding music are always so slow and sentimental`?
because the couple is entering the worst stage of their lives`!!!

my mother = THE CRAZY BITCH`!!!

i've really decided that i won't want to get married or give birth le...

why i don't want to marry is because...i still don't think guys can be trusted...after seeing so many broken relationships and all...i realise that guys can be as jerk as much as how girls bitch too...they can tell you this here...and then later go over to the other side and tell the othr the same thing...so...in the end which is true`? NONE`!!

and why i don't want to give birth is because...i don't think i can give the best to my children...i don't want to give birth to a child and then later he/she has got the same thinking as me...if he/she does, then i'm a failure in being a mother....i don't want my child to feel this for me...

i guess no one can change my mind set le bahs...

8:34 PM Z

``_____.*k`!!! i like~`!!!.#

wahs, woke up liaos straight away went out, hahas, went for k-session at k-ster...hahas, we 2 so got muo qi dee...hahas...mo`OwarrkXx`!!!

12:46 AM Z

Monday, September 10, 2007

``_____.*was it finally`?.#

went to school early in the morning...was suppose to tell course manager i don't want to take exam dee, but then she was sssoo busy entertaining someone else...so we waited for quite some time...in the end, we went to look for ramu...and ramu cannot help us do anything at all...arghs`!!! so in the end we ended up with HENG..sigh...

so the final result is that i stil have to take MKT paper...heng damn pro nohs, she see me nia tio know my name sia...OMG`!!!

yaas, and the paper was like...i don't even know what i am writing on the paper...wrote so many things..but then...all also rubbish sia...

sigh...so now, wednesday don't have to go to school liaos..i've started my hols...

2:54 PM Z

``_____.*boo;;.#

woOtiies`!!! should i be happy or should i repent about it`?

i don't intend to take my paper tomorrow, cause, i'm not even prepared.

yaas, what have i been doing`? nuts`!!!

Jess scolded me sia...she say i guai lan, ti ki and kiam meh...hahas...

no nahs, but then, maybe i am still looking for the mean reason that cause me loose interest in school...

firstly, thanks ramu for letting me take this MKT paper, but, yaas, sorry, i'm not prepared AT ALL`!!! if i got and take the paper tomorrow, i'd be wasting my own time, sitting there is not going to get me anywhere, especially when i totlly know nuts about MKT, i know you see me as though i am going to make it...but, i guess i disappoint you this time...

I not only disappoint you, i disappoint myself, my parents...everyone who has look at me as highly as you did...

AND`!!!

for that Admin teacher, yaas, i know you hated me, for what`? i don't know...i ask you question, you looked at me and simply turn your head away, as though i'm asking stupid question...but, that person infront was asking the SAME question as me`!!! and you answered him/her`!!! woahs`!!! i thank you for making me feel like a fool in class talking to the wall`!!!

1:05 AM Z

Sunday, September 09, 2007

``_____.*dis is so tirin....#

hohoho`!!! today si behs sians sia...went to work at pool3...arghs`!!! simply hate it there...SO DIRTY CANS`!!! luckily only work till 5...phew`!!! but then the next shift girl come at 4, hahas, so i can leave early`!!! yeahs`!!! wakakas`!!! then after that meet piku, then we go shopping`!!! yeahs`!!! i love shopping...kekes...

sorry boy, it's not the 1st time you asked me this question...you know it yourslf...you have the answer already, accept it...=D

lurvv my babyy^priince 4eva_____*

1:04 AM Z

Friday, September 07, 2007

``_____.*gr8`!! now wat`?.#

great, got debarred for both subject, appealed for both and only 1 approve, and it's the 1 i don't want to take...this is like FCUK cans`!!! i want to take Admin`!!! NOT MKT`!!! ARGHS`!!! this time cannot graduate liaos la`!!! arghs`!!! people study 2years and i am stuck in this stupid school for 2 and a half year`!!!

3:43 PM Z

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

``_____.*pls repent`! thanku`!!.#

fcuk it la...havent you thought about what on earth did you do that makes people say things like that`? don't you dare tell me things like that again`!!! screw you`!!!

3:12 PM Z

Monday, September 03, 2007

``_____.*all prepared.#

well...actually...i'm all prepared to fail MKT...but then of cause at least i must pass the Admin...arghs`!!! not going to study for anything liaos...sick and tired of those books...

i'm tired of how people judge me...i'm sick of being accuse, i'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me. whay won't they back up off me`? why won't they let me live`? i'm gonna do it my way take this for just what it is`!!!

hahas, now watching my fravourite shoe, I Not Stupid Too...hahas, the only show that i cried watching...kekes...i watch Titanic also never cry sia...cause hors, this I Not Stupid Too hors, really is very similar to our life now. it's not that you give birth to us, you'll know us....but then it's not true...nothing drops from that sky...you need to take time and patience to understand someone...infact...it takes forever... all we needed was a chance...a chance to prove that we're not rotten on the inside...what ever we do or say...is because...you made us choose this way...

so must watch okays...kekes`!!!

9:35 PM Z

Sunday, September 02, 2007

``_____.*y are we`?.#

babyy...why do you care`?

when fate comes to an end, no one can outrun the destiny ahead...the only way to get through it is to accept it...

lurvv babyy^priince

3:18 AM Z

Saturday, September 01, 2007

``_____.*spoilt wif choices`?.#

hahas, nahs..i'm not spoilt, just well taken care of...=Xx...
yaas, went back to work at pf1, the time today was like passing by so fast cans...omg`!!! hahas, then this new girl...ehh, seems lazy tome la...anyways, yaas, went all the way to that place to get the things i bought online, then while on the way home, K called, gosh, ask me want to go back and take over that new girl anots, cause she not feeling well...WTF nohs, wah lau, it's only your 3rd day at work lehs...you still fot so long more to go, so please don't start your nonsense now...thanks...anyways...guess what now, i'm broke...AGAIN`!!! sObXx sObXx...anyone want to pay for my shopping`? pls...pretty pretty please...=D i still got so many things to buy...please buy them for me...=D

11:59 PM Z